LIFE WITHOUT MUSIC

I came here in Saipan a few months ago. I wasn't emotionally ready to let go of my lifestyle in the Philippines but I tried to close my eyes and close my heart telling myself that this is for my own good. As the days passed by, I begin to accept and adapt myself with the so-called life in here. A simple life, sometimes too simple for the little old rocker like me.

I remember those days when I used to go to Mayric's in Espana by myself. I did this at least twice a week that time and found myself so dragged into it that I even left my school ID there accidentally. Worse thing was my landlord/guardian didn't even know that I go to that place by myself or even with my friends. Haha! You guess right! I screwed up coz the waiter called that little thing called in-case-of-emergency-tel# at the back of my ID and bwalah! my guardian was the lucky one to get the phonecall. But then, that didn't change a thing. It's like listen to his words while he's talking and forget them later. Hahaha! So I kept on going there especially on Sundays. I've met and made some friends, band members and even the server/waiter. I called them my "Kuyas". Some of them were my Kuya Alfie of Half Life Half Death (Half Life Half Elf now, I think) and all the band members of Subspecies, namely, Manny, Roland, Ronald, Topeng and Christian and of course Tito Miyo who had never stopped trying to make me play drums whenever I was there at Arouin's Studio in StaMesa. Oh well, those were the days, now I am not even sure if they remember me. But it's ok, it's enough that I remember them and I am so thankful that I had met them and they've been a part of my music life.

And then there was this one Sunday, as I remember, when I was hanging outside Mayric's and had a talk with Wolf of Wolfgang, that was my birthday (one of the bands who played greeted me) so he told me to ask my parents for a car as a gift. I told him I can't do that! Coz we're poor! Hahaha!

Oh well...let's go back to the topic, life without music. And so then the days, months passed by that I became contented to my CDs, my guitar (even I can hardly play hahaha!), and this radio station that plays rock music...although I didn't have much time to play/listen to all of them, I made sure that every once in a while I would squeeze in a few hours to do so. I was so swallowed with the daily routine of punch in punch out, go to work and go back home (7M3). By the way, I forgot to mention that I took drum lessons but I quit after 3 sessions. Why!? Because the instruction taught me how to read notes! Hehe! I hate notes! I just want to play...by the heart!

Anyway, a few years passed, I met some friends who were members of the band there in Saipan. Just don't ask me why and how I've met them, ok? Well, yes! Finally, I've found something good in Saipan! Uh-oh! The little old lady rocker is back! Hanging out at least once a week or two with those guys who'd made my music world in Saipan a better place to rock on!

There's just one thing for sure...life without music is sickness!

(started: Sept 2001 and finished Sept 2006)